Bryan Wong

在这新的一年

希望大家身体安康

笑口常开

May all be strong in all your endeavours

and bask in the glory of fulfillment …

smile with me,

Bryan

Weird isn’t, that i should entittle this entry as such..But the fact is that it dawned on me that being away for the most part of the last year has got a rather major effect on me..that i felt very much a changed person and it has been really strange for me for the past one month. It was a rather difficult task to readjust to being back and mingling with the crowd that i was once so used to.Just a couple of days ago i did an interview with i weekly..while the interview went well, as i have got a lot to share, the photography part was…excruciating.Once upon a time i am so into it, struting my stuff and posing for the camera.However, this time round,i felt rather uncomfortable.Even though the stylist has gotten me some very nice and funky stuff, in the end, i managed to get away with just a simple blue shirt and a pair of plain pants. It seems to me that i am getting used to the simpler side of life and anything else with just a bit of a fancy seemed one too many…

However, as i did the recording for the Giant show today, my former self managed to manifest himself and my oh my, he had a ball of a time…i had fun too…hmm. So perhaps one could grow and adopt a new outlook of life and the way he chooses to live it without renouncing the identity he once had ,or, all of it.It should be done in a good balance..for whoever he once was is still very much a part of him.

I think this is the day when i found myself again..in a way that fuses the new me and the old me..i hope it will work out fine..life is a wee bit too monotonus without its silly moments………..

I am back.

At last…..

Rather kinky way to name a post but,yeah! the pain i am gradually getting feels really..hmmm…ooh..soooooooooooooooo GOOD! Maybe in a twisted sadistic way i kind of a enjoy pain..Well, at least pain in such a manner that it is not damaging to your health and of course your mental well being..

After a long spell of absence i finally made it back to the gym today and  the look on their faces ( my sort of a trainer and a fellow gym mate) made me wanna laugh. “What the hell happened to you? Where have you been? You have lost weight! You gone off to another gym?.Questions after questions came forth and eyes darting up and down my body ,eyes with questions and puzzlement written and flashing as their eyes scruntinized my virginal unworked body of almost nine months! I answered as much as i could, at the same time, my eyes were taking in the familiar yet distant gym..Hey, something is different about the gym somehow…oh yes, it is bigger as they have knocked down the yoga/aerobics room and one of my favourite apparatus now sits happily right smack in the middle.

Started off with my favourite exercise, the bench press. As i struggled with the total weight of thirty five kg, which is 15 on each side plus the 5 kg bar, i felt the blood rushing through my veins and my breast..hmm..i meant, my chest started throbbing and swelling and the rush of adrenaline is just so addictive that i did not want to stop. After my third set, my gosh, i started to feel the numbness creeping up my upper torso and after the fifth set i was ready to move on to my arms. How happy i was to once again feel the rough texture of the handles as i gripped the dumbells with my bare hands( got to buy a pair of gloves tomorrow..can’t find my old ones) every lift propelling the dumbells up and down engorged the sleeping muscles that once i called them my biceps. Now its my own eyes that is darting up and down, through the looking glass i eyed the movement of flesh up and down me arms, every rippling or the faintest movements of my make believe biceps sends a thrill through my entire body..Oh man, I think i am way sick!

And i got through my first day back in the gym doing a low dosage of what i used to do.As i went into the shower, the task of getting my top off proves to be a bit of a mission impossible as my upper torso felt so abused but yet, the pain brought forth a smile to my lips. I am now a confirmed sadist and i revel in this revelation! Lying in bed just now, i am just so conscious of the dull ache that is spreading thru my body and i am now simply awaiting for the engaging pain that i will get when i struggle to get up tomorrow morning and the ache that is going to haunt me throughout the whole day tomorrow when i am filming.I am now smiling as i am making this entry for i think this must be the most twisted,sadistic and well, rather graphic entry that i have ever done.

Don’t be alarmed by this graphic me,

for i have embarked on one of my resolutions for this year.

This is simply…

the euphoria of a sadist .